I am not okay

People are alot like oceans…..

Remember how vast the oceans boundaries are.  Whilst somewhere the water is calm, in another place in the very same ocean, there is a collosal storm.  – Nikita Gill

I feel like people see the calm waters of me all the time. They don’t realise that somewhere far away is a storm raging inside me that I’m protecting them from…

I can feel myself being pulled under the waves and I’m not sure how much longer I can tread water. I’ve been having intrusive thoughts for the last few days and they are relentless and fatal. I just want to get Christmas over with and get back to routine before it’s too late.

Treading water and trying to avoid the voice telling me to give up – violet xx