It doesn’t seem fair that I have to come here just to see you. I stare at that square slab and remember my brother pouring your ashes into the tiny hole as we all wept. It was heart wrenching to see how small you had become, because you were the biggest man I had ever …
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Ripple makers: It takes one to make one.
I didn’t choose to have mental health issues.I didn’t choose to be abused by others.I didn’t choose my circumstances.For most of my life, choice hasn’t really been an option. Things have been done to me and for me. I’ve lived almost a year with no one controlling me or abusing me and it’s felt alien …
Instrusive thoughts of a harmful nature
I’ve not spoken about this topic to others before now for a few reasons. Lately, the experience has been intensifying and feeling less like ‘me’ as I’ve been doing pretty well. So I figured, heck, why not open up to you guys… What are intrusive thoughts you might ask?They are thoughts that are usually damaging …
New me
I’m in a state I’ve never been in before… I’m not quite sure who I am. I don’t feel anything. No fear, no sadness, no joy. I don’t notice the passing of time or the feelings of hunger. It’s like I’m stuck in a place and time. Something really strange happened on Christmas Eve. We …
Shrink(ing) Violet 