It doesn’t seem fair that I have to come here just to see you. I stare at that square slab and remember my brother pouring your ashes into the tiny hole as we all wept. It was heart wrenching to see how small you had become, because you were the biggest man I had ever …
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Sometimes the body speaks louder
Sometimes we can wake up feeling extremely low. We cant find the reason why. We just feel the way we feel. It’s extremely important to listen to our body. Especially when there isn’t a reason for our melancholy. The last few days my mood has dropped. With that has come a torrent of headaches and …
Ripple makers: It takes one to make one.
I didn’t choose to have mental health issues.I didn’t choose to be abused by others.I didn’t choose my circumstances.For most of my life, choice hasn’t really been an option. Things have been done to me and for me. I’ve lived almost a year with no one controlling me or abusing me and it’s felt alien …
Instrusive thoughts of a harmful nature
I’ve not spoken about this topic to others before now for a few reasons. Lately, the experience has been intensifying and feeling less like ‘me’ as I’ve been doing pretty well. So I figured, heck, why not open up to you guys… What are intrusive thoughts you might ask?They are thoughts that are usually damaging …
I don’t deserve the sunshine’s rays…
It’s 2.30am and I just cannot get to sleep! I’ve been doing really well since Christmas. I’ve only had one self harm relapse and it was only a baby cut. Today I’m having a bit of a wobble. I’ve seen it coming for a couple of days but held myself together. On Wednesday I saw …
Today I made friends with a travelling can…
I’m a sucker for a metaphor… Tonight whilst I was walking home down an unpopulated street, I came across an empty drinks can being blown by the wind to some unknown location. I felt that can. I felt the helplessness and anxiety it felt. Its so scary being thrown by an unknown force to an …
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Shrink(ing) Violet 