It doesn’t seem fair that I have to come here just to see you. I stare at that square slab and remember my brother pouring your ashes into the tiny hole as we all wept. It was heart wrenching to see how small you had become, because you were the biggest man I had ever …
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Dissociation and the emergency services. It needs to change!
I’m not quite sure what to share and what not to share today. I made this blog to help get the thoughts out of my head. I’m torn between being totally honest, sharing the darkest moments and making the blog factual in terms of living with mental illness from a less personal place. I’ll just …
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My addiction is taboo…
*TRIGGER WARNING for self harm, suicide, drugs and alcohol*********** If you need help in the UK contact the Samaritans on 116 123. Self injury is symbiotic with depression for myself. Its the way I’ve learnt to cope with stress, anxiety, low mood or apathy. I can’t remember the first time I intentionally harmed myself but …
Instrusive thoughts of a harmful nature
I’ve not spoken about this topic to others before now for a few reasons. Lately, the experience has been intensifying and feeling less like ‘me’ as I’ve been doing pretty well. So I figured, heck, why not open up to you guys… What are intrusive thoughts you might ask?They are thoughts that are usually damaging …
I am not okay
People are alot like oceans….. Remember how vast the oceans boundaries are. Whilst somewhere the water is calm, in another place in the very same ocean, there is a collosal storm. – Nikita Gill I feel like people see the calm waters of me all the time. They don’t realise that somewhere far away is …
Shrink(ing) Violet 