I don’t deserve the sunshine’s rays…

It’s 2.30am and I just cannot get to sleep! I’ve been doing really well since Christmas. I’ve only had one self harm relapse and it was only a baby cut. Today I’m having a bit of a wobble. I’ve seen it coming for a couple of days but held myself together. On Wednesday I saw …

The turning of the calendar does not start a new story and so it continues;

I’ve never really enjoyed new year celebrations. I’ve always seen them as a prompt to reflect on the past year and generally I’ve found reasons to be sombre. I’ve either not achieved my goals or I’ve struggled with my mental health. I long to be reflecting on what a waste the year has been. All …

New me

I’m in a state I’ve never been in before… I’m not quite sure who I am. I don’t feel anything. No fear, no sadness, no joy. I don’t notice the passing of time or the feelings of hunger. It’s like I’m stuck in a place and time. Something really strange happened on Christmas Eve. We …

Fixes and assumptions

Do you ever stop to think about how what you say affects others? I’m trying to be mindful about the words I use and what the recipients might ‘hear’ instead. See, I’ve had lots of people this year talking to me about lots of different issues. The times when I’ve felt better are usually the …

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