A blog about mental health, self harm, suicide, grief and trauma. Join me as i explore the inner workings of my brain
I’m not quite sure what to share and what not to share today. I made this blog to help get the thoughts out of my head. I’m torn between being totally honest, sharing the darkest moments and making the blog factual in terms of living with mental illness from a less personal place. I’ll just …
Continue reading “Dissociation and the emergency services. It needs to change!”
*TRIGGER WARNING for self harm, suicide, drugs and alcohol*********** If you need help in the UK contact the Samaritans on 116 123. Self injury is symbiotic with depression for myself. Its the way I’ve learnt to cope with stress, anxiety, low mood or apathy. I can’t remember the first time I intentionally harmed myself but …
I’m not sure how much longer I can listen to myself. I’m fighting a constant internal battle and I don’t think I will be the victor. The more I fight the more my critic gets louder. Its like two halves of the same entity are fighting to be heard and it’s deafening and exhausting. Its …
I’m a sucker for a metaphor… Tonight whilst I was walking home down an unpopulated street, I came across an empty drinks can being blown by the wind to some unknown location. I felt that can. I felt the helplessness and anxiety it felt. Its so scary being thrown by an unknown force to an …
Continue reading “Today I made friends with a travelling can…”
The one hour a week I see my counsellor is the only hour where I feel I lose control of my thoughts and feelings. Sometimes even I’m surprised at what comes pouring out from me because the rest of the time it’s buried so deep within my soul that even I can’t reach it. Somehow, …
Shrink(ing) Violet 